At last my posting, I was tell you that I never like if I was shouted, scolded, or anything that I never like. Ya, but the reality I was do that and I never never like about that. I was try to stay calm until NOW you know. And I never can't to reply that.
Some times I think it was so hard, very hard. But, now I enjoy with it. But actually I still never like about that. Why my lord, my God gave me a lot of patience? Now, I just grateful about His gave to me.
I do my life, no anyone else who forbade me to do anything including my parents of course. It was ME, my life, no one else, anyone, who forbade me. You can make a branded for me that I was evil, egotistical, or anything. No one else can forbade me.
Don't do something if you don't like it. Don't do any commands don't you like. Just tell to him or her that you don't do that. Even thought it also adds to our experience, but what's wrong if you're yourself. Just only be your self. If you are mad, tell that you are mad. If you're didn't like it, tell that you're didn't like it. Don't be afraid of anyone who blames you. Someday maybe you can laugh to people who was judge you. Oh no, that's too bad. Don't try that sentence ! Someday maybe they will see and think that you're better then him.
Like a clam, someday, I'll make my own pearl, I'll be keeping it sparkling, and only special person who would have that. I want to be like a clam. Honestly in my town clam is so bad because it was very smelly, but I want my pearl to be like a pearl of clam :)
